anything but pain

swimming carnival was alright. failed the race... killed my toe, leg and thigh :S:S
:S scratched tony today :L:L we had this fight:L:L which was weird ... in a way. im tanned like a bitch! u can see my bikini shape on my chest! and i hhave lines on my thighs :L. my toe hurts so much :(:(
=/=/=/=/ TODAYS WEDNESDAY! i guess... dreams never come true over all... every night i cry myself to sleep. =/ i had high hopes but when i think that you dont care anymore? it hurts me :( Im happy at a time of the day and then in the end im left sad... =/ i really miss you ; however, nothings going to happen.. i dont bother breathing.. ccause you were the reason why i breathed and now that you left me. whats left is friends who love me? but thats not enough :S. i want you baby. =/=/ but ur happy....... though its sad to see that im not the one who's making you smile and laugh... today, when the bell rang, when i walked to back gate with shena and victor.... my heart kept aching =/=/ and seeing victor and shena together... makes me miss the times we had together... =/ =/ =/

ALL THATS LEFT IS A BROKEN HEART.... 2499
everynight, i dream about the times we shared. through the kissing and makeing out to the future we discussed together... remember AMELIA AND ANTON? =/=/=/ the names of our son and daughter? =/ and remember how u wanted to eat max brenna on our 6 months? or the vvalentines day we were suppose to spend together... ?
i miss u kissing me
i miss u hugging me
i miss u loving me
and i miss u with me....

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