Boys think its clingy right? but the girl jst means hes her one true love and shes trying to tell him that!~ she thinks shes nothing to him... and her hearts broken whenever he says shes too obsessed. the memories of her being with him are haunting her... the fact that he once said he'd love her forever shatters her apart. knowing that shes been lied to ... she still loves him. Seeing him with other girls tares her apart. nothing but a heartache. whenever she thinks of him, her heart thumps.. and sometimes she would cry... on her bed facing the wall that had a tag of his name. the bed that he once lyed on with her.. when they were crazy for eachother. but now its only her crazy for him. all those times =/=/=/ does he even care? cause everyday , every minute she thinks of him. even though its not going to change anything she wishes for his love back in return. Her mind is filled with him hurting her, memories with him and methods in killing herself. she wishes shed stopped but her heart took over her body/mind. she cant controll her feelings. sounds crazy aye? she feels suicidal. she cant act for herself anymore.. she cant smile without her heart aching inside.. she cant live without him. but she cant force him back so she wants to leave this heartless world... but at the same time she doesnt want to leave the people who love her.. the friends who always had her back.. the friends who gave her a shoulder to cry on.. the friends who supported her to be get back with him... when they were still dating... he asked her what would she do if he broke up with her? she said she never stop crying and would die without him. thefore he promised to never break her heart... and so did she, she promised to never break his heart too. she still kept her promise .... but did he? NO~!!?!!??? and thats obviously why shes became so depressed. shes sick of people telling her theres other fish in the sea.. all she wants is that one fish!.. the fish probably fell for someone else by now.. 'the kindest person he's ever met' what does that suppose to mean? so what is she? NOTHING OF COURSE!
atm im crying :S i dont know why, well i do. but im not going to blog it because no one understands... i know u like her...
Monday, February 15, 2010
Sunday, February 14, 2010
LOLOLOL at sophy and rosa today? wtf :L:L year 7s in shit already.. :S im not taking sides since its none of there faults. rosas my sister and so is sophy.. well ish.
sighs idk why i like drama? but when im involved im so sick and tired of it. weird..
hmms cant waite to go shopping.
shopping list:
Highwaist shorts :D 25?
A dress for marisas (spot this sexy one in supre)25?
Get navel pierced :D 60?
maybe grey contacts :D
work on flat stomache.
and
tony (with 5 stars) hard. ::L:LL:L:L
teehee. school was gay and thats all i can say (A).
sighs idk why i like drama? but when im involved im so sick and tired of it. weird..
hmms cant waite to go shopping.
shopping list:
Highwaist shorts :D 25?
A dress for marisas (spot this sexy one in supre)25?
Get navel pierced :D 60?
maybe grey contacts :D
work on flat stomache.
and
tony (with 5 stars) hard. ::L:LL:L:L
teehee. school was gay and thats all i can say (A).
Saturday, February 13, 2010
HBD SHENA , HAPPY VALENTINES DAY & HAPPY CHINESE NY
Susans party was fun, her friends were scary though.. kept looking at me but it was still fun. mmm ice cream cake, juimping castle, catering and a pinata thingo. teeeheeee after susans party i went with my far cousins, mum and grandma to chua phuc hue or w.e to pray and watch fireworks. (A) i prayed to be happy :)
:S it was rainging like shit so i didnt get to see a close look at the lion dancers. :S oh wells. im sick :S stood in the rain like a shower.. and tried not to think but :S he keeps popping in my mind. then it was 12 and sophy and shena texted me ::L:LL fireworks delayed 3 minutes after and it was sooooo pretty! i recorded it :D and when im bothered ill put it on youtube :D sighs while watching the fireworks i started missing you a lot and wished u were there with me.. i dont know why but i stil love you... :S i know u think im clingy and too **** but i love you and i dont mind with no love in return.. though deep inside i wish u did
:S it was rainging like shit so i didnt get to see a close look at the lion dancers. :S oh wells. im sick :S stood in the rain like a shower.. and tried not to think but :S he keeps popping in my mind. then it was 12 and sophy and shena texted me ::L:LL fireworks delayed 3 minutes after and it was sooooo pretty! i recorded it :D and when im bothered ill put it on youtube :D sighs while watching the fireworks i started missing you a lot and wished u were there with me.. i dont know why but i stil love you... :S i know u think im clingy and too **** but i love you and i dont mind with no love in return.. though deep inside i wish u did
Friday, February 12, 2010
shiet
far i listened to that song do u remember for like 58 times in one day. its so meaningful and good that i put on repeat for hours :L. and now im listening to chuckie akens - love hurts. :S:S its so sad and hearttouching. love songs make me cry :S.
Through these past few days I've been reminiscing back
it�s the first time I couldn't understand what we had
Was it love? Was it passion? Was it all a waste of time?
now its hate, now its pain, now its all this shit combined
I can't force myself to erase all our memories
but when I'm thinking back I always feel like u fooled me
nobody to blame but myself from being blinded
crying in my sleep hoping this hurting passes by
I�ve been told by my sisters how these guys are all the same
but you had me so convinced that my world suddenly changed
cause you always made me smile but a smile isn�t forever
and I guess its unpredictable like change in the weather
I thought we'd work it out like those other times before
but the truth had to reveal, we cant live a lie no more
I'm still young and I'm still trying to stay true to my heart
my dreams have disappeared and now my life's scattered apart
love hurts so we all cry
tears droppin from my eyes
the pain I cant explain
all I know is love is pain
Love hurts so we all cry
tears droppin from my eyes
the pain I can�t explain
all I know is love is pain
This is me, Kangel
dedicating this song to all my girls
Whose gone through break-ups
Who felt the pain of losing someone you truly love,
and who lost hope and all thier dreams,
but remember, there is someone out there truly special,
waiting for you out there..
Through these past few days I've been reminiscing back
it�s the first time I couldn't understand what we had
Was it love? Was it passion? Was it all a waste of time?
now its hate, now its pain, now its all this shit combined
I can't force myself to erase all our memories
but when I'm thinking back I always feel like u fooled me
nobody to blame but myself from being blinded
crying in my sleep hoping this hurting passes by
I�ve been told by my sisters how these guys are all the same
but you had me so convinced that my world suddenly changed
cause you always made me smile but a smile isn�t forever
and I guess its unpredictable like change in the weather
I thought we'd work it out like those other times before
but the truth had to reveal, we cant live a lie no more
I'm still young and I'm still trying to stay true to my heart
my dreams have disappeared and now my life's scattered apart
love hurts so we all cry
tears droppin from my eyes
the pain I cant explain
all I know is love is pain
Love hurts so we all cry
tears droppin from my eyes
the pain I can�t explain
all I know is love is pain
This is me, Kangel
dedicating this song to all my girls
Whose gone through break-ups
Who felt the pain of losing someone you truly love,
and who lost hope and all thier dreams,
but remember, there is someone out there truly special,
waiting for you out there..
Thursday, February 11, 2010
;p
ngaww tony and peter werent here today.. =/=/
oh wells, roll call was kinda fun. but only the parts where people kept going in to give me and shena roses :L yay i got 7 :L and yes all from girls! :L:L
sighs english was so hott and boring .. teacher cant even talk... hehes then i faked to go toilet and just walked around school :D then weird.. chick came in to say that she cant find tony so i just took the rose.. if only he was present today.. well he wasnt so i just gave it to iesha to give to marisa to give to tony :D.
hmmms then sciencce.. yeah yeah boring as usual.
recess.. er boring as usual? :L:L
languages OMFG mr nguyen is a whore! fucking dickhead toos... farout pissed the shit out of me.. he thinks hes all that and kept giving people detention for stupid simple shit! fucking ass, cant even go to a bin? or try get something out of my eye while looking at a mirror? ooooooooooft i want to move language classes..!!!!!!!!!!
yeah yeah then maths.. ngawws looking at the empty spot next to me.. oh wells then sir marked the roll and called out for tony :L:L and i said tonys dead :L:L ahhahahshahahhhahas he actually believed me.. that when i came up to him he asked.. and i just said hes sick at home.. and he asks is he your friend? i answered close friend then walked away.... whispering and ex boyfriend.. :S ra ra ra hahas aderson texted me and it rung .. then stephen got the blame =D =D =D
why do i always get people into trouble?:L:L
anyhow yay lunch me vivian hired our lockers.. and ra ra ra ngggggggggggggggawsss shena dedicated a song to us ' single ladies' to me iesha and vivian :D:D:D:D
then english again :S:S boring as usual.. drew a hot angel with big tits and dannii drew a tank guy with wings :L:L..
then tec... oh yeah nts; do assignment about switzerland.. :S due 26th Feb
homeeeeeeeeeeeee timeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
and here i am.. i dont why ? but no ones replying me :(
oh wells, roll call was kinda fun. but only the parts where people kept going in to give me and shena roses :L yay i got 7 :L and yes all from girls! :L:L
sighs english was so hott and boring .. teacher cant even talk... hehes then i faked to go toilet and just walked around school :D then weird.. chick came in to say that she cant find tony so i just took the rose.. if only he was present today.. well he wasnt so i just gave it to iesha to give to marisa to give to tony :D.
hmmms then sciencce.. yeah yeah boring as usual.
recess.. er boring as usual? :L:L
languages OMFG mr nguyen is a whore! fucking dickhead toos... farout pissed the shit out of me.. he thinks hes all that and kept giving people detention for stupid simple shit! fucking ass, cant even go to a bin? or try get something out of my eye while looking at a mirror? ooooooooooft i want to move language classes..!!!!!!!!!!
yeah yeah then maths.. ngawws looking at the empty spot next to me.. oh wells then sir marked the roll and called out for tony :L:L and i said tonys dead :L:L ahhahahshahahhhahas he actually believed me.. that when i came up to him he asked.. and i just said hes sick at home.. and he asks is he your friend? i answered close friend then walked away.... whispering and ex boyfriend.. :S ra ra ra hahas aderson texted me and it rung .. then stephen got the blame =D =D =D
why do i always get people into trouble?:L:L
anyhow yay lunch me vivian hired our lockers.. and ra ra ra ngggggggggggggggawsss shena dedicated a song to us ' single ladies' to me iesha and vivian :D:D:D:D
then english again :S:S boring as usual.. drew a hot angel with big tits and dannii drew a tank guy with wings :L:L..
then tec... oh yeah nts; do assignment about switzerland.. :S due 26th Feb
homeeeeeeeeeeeee timeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
and here i am.. i dont why ? but no ones replying me :(
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