Boys think its clingy right? but the girl jst means hes her one true love and shes trying to tell him that!~ she thinks shes nothing to him... and her hearts broken whenever he says shes too obsessed. the memories of her being with him are haunting her... the fact that he once said he'd love her forever shatters her apart. knowing that shes been lied to ... she still loves him. Seeing him with other girls tares her apart. nothing but a heartache. whenever she thinks of him, her heart thumps.. and sometimes she would cry... on her bed facing the wall that had a tag of his name. the bed that he once lyed on with her.. when they were crazy for eachother. but now its only her crazy for him. all those times =/=/=/ does he even care? cause everyday , every minute she thinks of him. even though its not going to change anything she wishes for his love back in return. Her mind is filled with him hurting her, memories with him and methods in killing herself. she wishes shed stopped but her heart took over her body/mind. she cant controll her feelings. sounds crazy aye? she feels suicidal. she cant act for herself anymore.. she cant smile without her heart aching inside.. she cant live without him. but she cant force him back so she wants to leave this heartless world... but at the same time she doesnt want to leave the people who love her.. the friends who always had her back.. the friends who gave her a shoulder to cry on.. the friends who supported her to be get back with him... when they were still dating... he asked her what would she do if he broke up with her? she said she never stop crying and would die without him. thefore he promised to never break her heart... and so did she, she promised to never break his heart too. she still kept her promise .... but did he? NO~!!?!!??? and thats obviously why shes became so depressed. shes sick of people telling her theres other fish in the sea.. all she wants is that one fish!.. the fish probably fell for someone else by now.. 'the kindest person he's ever met' what does that suppose to mean? so what is she? NOTHING OF COURSE!
atm im crying :S i dont know why, well i do. but im not going to blog it because no one understands... i know u like her...
Monday, February 15, 2010
Sunday, February 14, 2010
LOLOLOL at sophy and rosa today? wtf :L:L year 7s in shit already.. :S im not taking sides since its none of there faults. rosas my sister and so is sophy.. well ish.
sighs idk why i like drama? but when im involved im so sick and tired of it. weird..
hmms cant waite to go shopping.
shopping list:
Highwaist shorts :D 25?
A dress for marisas (spot this sexy one in supre)25?
Get navel pierced :D 60?
maybe grey contacts :D
work on flat stomache.
and
tony (with 5 stars) hard. ::L:LL:L:L
teehee. school was gay and thats all i can say (A).
sighs idk why i like drama? but when im involved im so sick and tired of it. weird..
hmms cant waite to go shopping.
shopping list:
Highwaist shorts :D 25?
A dress for marisas (spot this sexy one in supre)25?
Get navel pierced :D 60?
maybe grey contacts :D
work on flat stomache.
and
tony (with 5 stars) hard. ::L:LL:L:L
teehee. school was gay and thats all i can say (A).
Saturday, February 13, 2010
HBD SHENA , HAPPY VALENTINES DAY & HAPPY CHINESE NY
Susans party was fun, her friends were scary though.. kept looking at me but it was still fun. mmm ice cream cake, juimping castle, catering and a pinata thingo. teeeheeee after susans party i went with my far cousins, mum and grandma to chua phuc hue or w.e to pray and watch fireworks. (A) i prayed to be happy :)
:S it was rainging like shit so i didnt get to see a close look at the lion dancers. :S oh wells. im sick :S stood in the rain like a shower.. and tried not to think but :S he keeps popping in my mind. then it was 12 and sophy and shena texted me ::L:LL fireworks delayed 3 minutes after and it was sooooo pretty! i recorded it :D and when im bothered ill put it on youtube :D sighs while watching the fireworks i started missing you a lot and wished u were there with me.. i dont know why but i stil love you... :S i know u think im clingy and too **** but i love you and i dont mind with no love in return.. though deep inside i wish u did
:S it was rainging like shit so i didnt get to see a close look at the lion dancers. :S oh wells. im sick :S stood in the rain like a shower.. and tried not to think but :S he keeps popping in my mind. then it was 12 and sophy and shena texted me ::L:LL fireworks delayed 3 minutes after and it was sooooo pretty! i recorded it :D and when im bothered ill put it on youtube :D sighs while watching the fireworks i started missing you a lot and wished u were there with me.. i dont know why but i stil love you... :S i know u think im clingy and too **** but i love you and i dont mind with no love in return.. though deep inside i wish u did
Friday, February 12, 2010
shiet
far i listened to that song do u remember for like 58 times in one day. its so meaningful and good that i put on repeat for hours :L. and now im listening to chuckie akens - love hurts. :S:S its so sad and hearttouching. love songs make me cry :S.
Through these past few days I've been reminiscing back
it�s the first time I couldn't understand what we had
Was it love? Was it passion? Was it all a waste of time?
now its hate, now its pain, now its all this shit combined
I can't force myself to erase all our memories
but when I'm thinking back I always feel like u fooled me
nobody to blame but myself from being blinded
crying in my sleep hoping this hurting passes by
I�ve been told by my sisters how these guys are all the same
but you had me so convinced that my world suddenly changed
cause you always made me smile but a smile isn�t forever
and I guess its unpredictable like change in the weather
I thought we'd work it out like those other times before
but the truth had to reveal, we cant live a lie no more
I'm still young and I'm still trying to stay true to my heart
my dreams have disappeared and now my life's scattered apart
love hurts so we all cry
tears droppin from my eyes
the pain I cant explain
all I know is love is pain
Love hurts so we all cry
tears droppin from my eyes
the pain I can�t explain
all I know is love is pain
This is me, Kangel
dedicating this song to all my girls
Whose gone through break-ups
Who felt the pain of losing someone you truly love,
and who lost hope and all thier dreams,
but remember, there is someone out there truly special,
waiting for you out there..
Through these past few days I've been reminiscing back
it�s the first time I couldn't understand what we had
Was it love? Was it passion? Was it all a waste of time?
now its hate, now its pain, now its all this shit combined
I can't force myself to erase all our memories
but when I'm thinking back I always feel like u fooled me
nobody to blame but myself from being blinded
crying in my sleep hoping this hurting passes by
I�ve been told by my sisters how these guys are all the same
but you had me so convinced that my world suddenly changed
cause you always made me smile but a smile isn�t forever
and I guess its unpredictable like change in the weather
I thought we'd work it out like those other times before
but the truth had to reveal, we cant live a lie no more
I'm still young and I'm still trying to stay true to my heart
my dreams have disappeared and now my life's scattered apart
love hurts so we all cry
tears droppin from my eyes
the pain I cant explain
all I know is love is pain
Love hurts so we all cry
tears droppin from my eyes
the pain I can�t explain
all I know is love is pain
This is me, Kangel
dedicating this song to all my girls
Whose gone through break-ups
Who felt the pain of losing someone you truly love,
and who lost hope and all thier dreams,
but remember, there is someone out there truly special,
waiting for you out there..
Thursday, February 11, 2010
;p
ngaww tony and peter werent here today.. =/=/
oh wells, roll call was kinda fun. but only the parts where people kept going in to give me and shena roses :L yay i got 7 :L and yes all from girls! :L:L
sighs english was so hott and boring .. teacher cant even talk... hehes then i faked to go toilet and just walked around school :D then weird.. chick came in to say that she cant find tony so i just took the rose.. if only he was present today.. well he wasnt so i just gave it to iesha to give to marisa to give to tony :D.
hmmms then sciencce.. yeah yeah boring as usual.
recess.. er boring as usual? :L:L
languages OMFG mr nguyen is a whore! fucking dickhead toos... farout pissed the shit out of me.. he thinks hes all that and kept giving people detention for stupid simple shit! fucking ass, cant even go to a bin? or try get something out of my eye while looking at a mirror? ooooooooooft i want to move language classes..!!!!!!!!!!
yeah yeah then maths.. ngawws looking at the empty spot next to me.. oh wells then sir marked the roll and called out for tony :L:L and i said tonys dead :L:L ahhahahshahahhhahas he actually believed me.. that when i came up to him he asked.. and i just said hes sick at home.. and he asks is he your friend? i answered close friend then walked away.... whispering and ex boyfriend.. :S ra ra ra hahas aderson texted me and it rung .. then stephen got the blame =D =D =D
why do i always get people into trouble?:L:L
anyhow yay lunch me vivian hired our lockers.. and ra ra ra ngggggggggggggggawsss shena dedicated a song to us ' single ladies' to me iesha and vivian :D:D:D:D
then english again :S:S boring as usual.. drew a hot angel with big tits and dannii drew a tank guy with wings :L:L..
then tec... oh yeah nts; do assignment about switzerland.. :S due 26th Feb
homeeeeeeeeeeeee timeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
and here i am.. i dont why ? but no ones replying me :(
oh wells, roll call was kinda fun. but only the parts where people kept going in to give me and shena roses :L yay i got 7 :L and yes all from girls! :L:L
sighs english was so hott and boring .. teacher cant even talk... hehes then i faked to go toilet and just walked around school :D then weird.. chick came in to say that she cant find tony so i just took the rose.. if only he was present today.. well he wasnt so i just gave it to iesha to give to marisa to give to tony :D.
hmmms then sciencce.. yeah yeah boring as usual.
recess.. er boring as usual? :L:L
languages OMFG mr nguyen is a whore! fucking dickhead toos... farout pissed the shit out of me.. he thinks hes all that and kept giving people detention for stupid simple shit! fucking ass, cant even go to a bin? or try get something out of my eye while looking at a mirror? ooooooooooft i want to move language classes..!!!!!!!!!!
yeah yeah then maths.. ngawws looking at the empty spot next to me.. oh wells then sir marked the roll and called out for tony :L:L and i said tonys dead :L:L ahhahahshahahhhahas he actually believed me.. that when i came up to him he asked.. and i just said hes sick at home.. and he asks is he your friend? i answered close friend then walked away.... whispering and ex boyfriend.. :S ra ra ra hahas aderson texted me and it rung .. then stephen got the blame =D =D =D
why do i always get people into trouble?:L:L
anyhow yay lunch me vivian hired our lockers.. and ra ra ra ngggggggggggggggawsss shena dedicated a song to us ' single ladies' to me iesha and vivian :D:D:D:D
then english again :S:S boring as usual.. drew a hot angel with big tits and dannii drew a tank guy with wings :L:L..
then tec... oh yeah nts; do assignment about switzerland.. :S due 26th Feb
homeeeeeeeeeeeee timeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
and here i am.. i dont why ? but no ones replying me :(
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
anything but pain
swimming carnival was alright. failed the race... killed my toe, leg and thigh :S:S
:S scratched tony today :L:L we had this fight:L:L which was weird ... in a way. im tanned like a bitch! u can see my bikini shape on my chest! and i hhave lines on my thighs :L. my toe hurts so much :(:(
=/=/=/=/ TODAYS WEDNESDAY! i guess... dreams never come true over all... every night i cry myself to sleep. =/ i had high hopes but when i think that you dont care anymore? it hurts me :( Im happy at a time of the day and then in the end im left sad... =/ i really miss you ; however, nothings going to happen.. i dont bother breathing.. ccause you were the reason why i breathed and now that you left me. whats left is friends who love me? but thats not enough :S. i want you baby. =/=/ but ur happy....... though its sad to see that im not the one who's making you smile and laugh... today, when the bell rang, when i walked to back gate with shena and victor.... my heart kept aching =/=/ and seeing victor and shena together... makes me miss the times we had together... =/ =/ =/
ALL THATS LEFT IS A BROKEN HEART.... 2499
everynight, i dream about the times we shared. through the kissing and makeing out to the future we discussed together... remember AMELIA AND ANTON? =/=/=/ the names of our son and daughter? =/ and remember how u wanted to eat max brenna on our 6 months? or the vvalentines day we were suppose to spend together... ?
i miss u kissing me
i miss u hugging me
i miss u loving me
and i miss u with me....
=/=/=/
:S scratched tony today :L:L we had this fight:L:L which was weird ... in a way. im tanned like a bitch! u can see my bikini shape on my chest! and i hhave lines on my thighs :L. my toe hurts so much :(:(
=/=/=/=/ TODAYS WEDNESDAY! i guess... dreams never come true over all... every night i cry myself to sleep. =/ i had high hopes but when i think that you dont care anymore? it hurts me :( Im happy at a time of the day and then in the end im left sad... =/ i really miss you ; however, nothings going to happen.. i dont bother breathing.. ccause you were the reason why i breathed and now that you left me. whats left is friends who love me? but thats not enough :S. i want you baby. =/=/ but ur happy....... though its sad to see that im not the one who's making you smile and laugh... today, when the bell rang, when i walked to back gate with shena and victor.... my heart kept aching =/=/ and seeing victor and shena together... makes me miss the times we had together... =/ =/ =/
ALL THATS LEFT IS A BROKEN HEART.... 2499
everynight, i dream about the times we shared. through the kissing and makeing out to the future we discussed together... remember AMELIA AND ANTON? =/=/=/ the names of our son and daughter? =/ and remember how u wanted to eat max brenna on our 6 months? or the vvalentines day we were suppose to spend together... ?
i miss u kissing me
i miss u hugging me
i miss u loving me
and i miss u with me....
=/=/=/
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
booo hooo :(
Did my typical routine i do every school morning :D
hehes happy birthday my lovely cousin, susan. *rolls eyes* she wants me broke!
NTS; buy susan a pandora bead. gold/silver.
hmmms hehese i was so naughty in roll call i had to be seated next to miss june. ^.^ (A) how much of a rebel am i?
bla bla bla eww assembly under the hot blazing sun whilst the concrete was cold!!! anyhow yay pdh... teehee i forgot my book.
then yayyyyyyy maths with tony :)(A) :D that bitch brused my leg today :(:(
sighs.... i thought hmms.. tmroes wednesday.. =/=/=/ 2499s not going to mean anything if i dont get him back tmro.. but who cares.... =/=/ NOT. fuck hehe kiddings oh wells i cant really get whatever i want whenever i want aye? i just got to be patient. weird... older guys kept looking at to me. *shivers*
the usual recess...
then visual arts :D i got a merit niggas and finished first (A) oh yeah another nts; pay bloody school fees and bring 30 for roses on thursday !
(A) then the usual lunch.... whats wrong with 2010.. how boring and heartbreaking can it get =/
oh wells then eww english with the lady who cant even talk? lol i had the guts to say MISS I CANT READ YOUR WRITING? :L:L then she tells me to move closer... so i did but what i tried to tell her was that she had ugly shit writing? so i said it again and moved back to where dannii was :D. ahahahs and she wrote bigger likeeeeeeeeeee waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay bigger (Y) which is a good thing since im getting blind. :)
:L:L oh yeah and i was listening to music on minimum volume.. stupid bitch didnt even notice :D
sighs.. bell rang and walked back gate with lyndal... while listening to music, i kept thinking about him.. what the fucks wrong with me. at least we're friends for now? right? or not idks :S:S:S =/=/=/ HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY
fuck tutor :L:L CO HIEN WAS A MOTHER FUCKING BITCH TODAY! offffffffffffffffft --" forgot about our break and didnt even give us one. instead she gave us hard work..--"
hehes happy birthday my lovely cousin, susan. *rolls eyes* she wants me broke!
NTS; buy susan a pandora bead. gold/silver.
hmmms hehese i was so naughty in roll call i had to be seated next to miss june. ^.^ (A) how much of a rebel am i?
bla bla bla eww assembly under the hot blazing sun whilst the concrete was cold!!! anyhow yay pdh... teehee i forgot my book.
then yayyyyyyy maths with tony :)(A) :D that bitch brused my leg today :(:(
sighs.... i thought hmms.. tmroes wednesday.. =/=/=/ 2499s not going to mean anything if i dont get him back tmro.. but who cares.... =/=/ NOT. fuck hehe kiddings oh wells i cant really get whatever i want whenever i want aye? i just got to be patient. weird... older guys kept looking at to me. *shivers*
the usual recess...
then visual arts :D i got a merit niggas and finished first (A) oh yeah another nts; pay bloody school fees and bring 30 for roses on thursday !
(A) then the usual lunch.... whats wrong with 2010.. how boring and heartbreaking can it get =/
oh wells then eww english with the lady who cant even talk? lol i had the guts to say MISS I CANT READ YOUR WRITING? :L:L then she tells me to move closer... so i did but what i tried to tell her was that she had ugly shit writing? so i said it again and moved back to where dannii was :D. ahahahs and she wrote bigger likeeeeeeeeeee waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay bigger (Y) which is a good thing since im getting blind. :)
:L:L oh yeah and i was listening to music on minimum volume.. stupid bitch didnt even notice :D
sighs.. bell rang and walked back gate with lyndal... while listening to music, i kept thinking about him.. what the fucks wrong with me. at least we're friends for now? right? or not idks :S:S:S =/=/=/ HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY
fuck tutor :L:L CO HIEN WAS A MOTHER FUCKING BITCH TODAY! offffffffffffffffft --" forgot about our break and didnt even give us one. instead she gave us hard work..--"
Sunday, February 7, 2010
8th February*
hmms i woke up at 6:58 and took a half an hour shower power :D and got ready for school. freaken mum went somewhere and came back at 8:20 :S so had to waite... rarara then picked up my two lovely cousins, susan and julie.
got to school and the first thing my friend said was fucking model :L:L lols wtf..
i dont find myself attractive...
hehes i was high in the morning :L and i kept showing my friends my tongue with a lil saliva on it :L:L:L looked gross cause it looked like i had cum in my mouth :D
:L::L fucking cant stop looking at the cute face >.<
anyways ROLL CALL :L:L:L hmmmms i was a lil high :D
then... maths err sat close to thingy :L:L and tried to smile :D though it worked ^.^
and hehes behaved a little naught and i think i kinda pissed the shits outta him :L:L
then... languages :L i screamed and iesha had to go detention :S:S (A)
far shena texted me during a test! and my phone wasnt on silent and guess what my message tone was hardstyle sex! nigga that was hilarious :L:L hahahhas and got 100% for the test :D
recess was boring as usual.
double science was ok.. kept talking dirty to jennifer and joy and shit..
fuck :L:LL:L:L:L:L:L:L:L:L had to leave for lunch last.. --"
then lunch hmmmms wasnt hungry and fouund my friends at bball court.. lol i dont fucking noe why but i bought tony a rose? and helen wanted to swear on the message :L:L but in the end we werent allowed to swear so helen jst wrote i miss you
arghhhhhhhh im goin to be broke :L:L gotta buy 6 more >.<
anyways.. then i had sport.. oft girls and boys are seperated.. how fucking gay. oft and i lost my pe shirt so i had to wear this stinky shirt that said cheetah? :L:L
played newcomball :L:L and my team won the lost... 2 fucking laps.. gotta be kidding me hahahhahs.
now im here reading my quotes, facebooking and msn :D fuck shena text me again :L:L
sheeeesh the tone echoed..
-don't wanna fall for him again,' dont think I can
take the pain Don't wanna have these feelings'
'if he doesnt feel the same dont want my heart
to jump when I havent talked to him for a while
don't wana see him grin If Im not the one whos
makin him smile dont wuna try to explain if he'lL
never understand I dont want tears in my eyes
everytime I see his face Dont want my heart to
be empty If he is thee only one who can fill 'the
space I dont want to have to smile at him when
I really wanna cry don't want him to wave hello
If he really means goodbye don't wana tell him
or let my feelings show' dont wanna get played
As a result of his little game but all he has to do
tOo get me backk Is simply.. justt say my name-
what a heart touching quote..
got to school and the first thing my friend said was fucking model :L:L lols wtf..
i dont find myself attractive...
hehes i was high in the morning :L and i kept showing my friends my tongue with a lil saliva on it :L:L:L looked gross cause it looked like i had cum in my mouth :D
:L::L fucking cant stop looking at the cute face >.<
anyways ROLL CALL :L:L:L hmmmms i was a lil high :D
then... maths err sat close to thingy :L:L and tried to smile :D though it worked ^.^
and hehes behaved a little naught and i think i kinda pissed the shits outta him :L:L
then... languages :L i screamed and iesha had to go detention :S:S (A)
far shena texted me during a test! and my phone wasnt on silent and guess what my message tone was hardstyle sex! nigga that was hilarious :L:L hahahhas and got 100% for the test :D
recess was boring as usual.
double science was ok.. kept talking dirty to jennifer and joy and shit..
fuck :L:LL:L:L:L:L:L:L:L:L had to leave for lunch last.. --"
then lunch hmmmms wasnt hungry and fouund my friends at bball court.. lol i dont fucking noe why but i bought tony a rose? and helen wanted to swear on the message :L:L but in the end we werent allowed to swear so helen jst wrote i miss you
arghhhhhhhh im goin to be broke :L:L gotta buy 6 more >.<
anyways.. then i had sport.. oft girls and boys are seperated.. how fucking gay. oft and i lost my pe shirt so i had to wear this stinky shirt that said cheetah? :L:L
played newcomball :L:L and my team won the lost... 2 fucking laps.. gotta be kidding me hahahhahs.
now im here reading my quotes, facebooking and msn :D fuck shena text me again :L:L
sheeeesh the tone echoed..
-don't wanna fall for him again,' dont think I can
take the pain Don't wanna have these feelings'
'if he doesnt feel the same dont want my heart
to jump when I havent talked to him for a while
don't wana see him grin If Im not the one whos
makin him smile dont wuna try to explain if he'lL
never understand I dont want tears in my eyes
everytime I see his face Dont want my heart to
be empty If he is thee only one who can fill 'the
space I dont want to have to smile at him when
I really wanna cry don't want him to wave hello
If he really means goodbye don't wana tell him
or let my feelings show' dont wanna get played
As a result of his little game but all he has to do
tOo get me backk Is simply.. justt say my name-
what a heart touching quote..
Saturday, February 6, 2010
theres not one guy who will have my heart but u
this feeling inside of me is the most painful feeling i ever went through in my whole life. i hurt shena... and i got hurt myself. he just wants to be friends.. i know im selfish but all i want is to be with him again.... i cant stop cring.. and my heart aches continuesly... i have trouble breathing at certain times and i did some regretful things.... he said it will be hard to get back together.. cause he has no feelings.. so theres no point of me begging for him to come back to me tmro... if i did become close friends with him... i might get hurt. cause no matter what i wont stop loving him more then just a friend. he might fall for someone else and its not going to be what i want, but at least hes happy. im never going to be happy until he loves me more then a friend back. but i doubt it. im not going to have a second chance... i miss him so much. more then anything in the world. i have true feelings for him. everytime i listen to our song or the songs he use to sing to me i burst into tears. i keep thinking about him and i miss u alot!
Baby i loved you, Why did you let me go?
Yes it hurts me, But i still want you to know
All the love we made
Can never be erased
And i promise you that you will never be replaced
Damn oh this boy,
he really had me thinking
Making him the more reason the future we'd be living together
and i knew it wouldn't be forever
Cause i know good things dont last long
But we could've made it further.
All the things you told me, All were lies
I know, Cause if you felt how you said you felt
You just couldn't let me go.
Without a single reason
Not even a single fight
You gave the best of my life,
But with the lonliest nights.
I got it bad, No, I got even worst that even Usher.
Cause even though you did i cant let go
No, i know its not supposed to come back
I know that you won
I know that you left
and never coming back.
Accept the fact that your gone
Baby i loved you, Why did you let me go?
Yes it hurts me, But i still want you to know
All the love we made
Can never be erased
And i promise you that you will never be replaced
forever u will be in my heart, ill never let go.
im feeling suicidal but only thing stopping me is that i dont want anyone to worry about me. whether u do or dont care i wish one day we can be together again . and this time i want it to be true. i dont want u to lie to me.
oh great im crying again....
Baby i loved you, Why did you let me go?
Yes it hurts me, But i still want you to know
All the love we made
Can never be erased
And i promise you that you will never be replaced
Damn oh this boy,
he really had me thinking
Making him the more reason the future we'd be living together
and i knew it wouldn't be forever
Cause i know good things dont last long
But we could've made it further.
All the things you told me, All were lies
I know, Cause if you felt how you said you felt
You just couldn't let me go.
Without a single reason
Not even a single fight
You gave the best of my life,
But with the lonliest nights.
I got it bad, No, I got even worst that even Usher.
Cause even though you did i cant let go
No, i know its not supposed to come back
I know that you won
I know that you left
and never coming back.
Accept the fact that your gone
Baby i loved you, Why did you let me go?
Yes it hurts me, But i still want you to know
All the love we made
Can never be erased
And i promise you that you will never be replaced
forever u will be in my heart, ill never let go.
im feeling suicidal but only thing stopping me is that i dont want anyone to worry about me. whether u do or dont care i wish one day we can be together again . and this time i want it to be true. i dont want u to lie to me.
oh great im crying again....
Thursday, February 4, 2010
now and then i think its going to be ok.... but really its not =/
How can u walk right by and not even glance my way. When Im having a conversation with our friends.why do u always abstain? Im still so used to seeing u and u walking right up to say hi. Why cant we just go back and give us just one more try I promise we could make it work. I still love you. But what hurts me the most ...is wondering if I ever meant anything to u and If i love u always, i promise. was just a lie.
im so hurt.. i feel as though i cant smile. the only way i can.. is to be with him again. all i want is him but at the same time i dont want my friends to hate me for loving him too much.. i look at everyone and i always think there the best things in the world ive ever had. especially shena, shes always there for me and she cares about me a lot, but i cant make her happy =/=/ im always sad.
:S people may think i chose a boy over my greatest friends... its not true. i love all of yous including him... no matter what, no one will ever be replaced. i dont even have enemies at the moment. i hate no one. i love everyone in the world even the cruelest of them all.. but the people i love most are my friends and him...
i try to not think about him every second of the day. but everything reminds me about him. theres tags all over my tutor books! tag on my pencil case and ruler... tags in nearly every classroom! every love song i hear even reminds me of him. harstyles too. my room reminds me of him :S my maths hw reminds me of him.... a stupid bottle reminds me of him... things that made me happy reminds me of him..... pretty much everything reminds me of him... and when i think about it.. i try to not get upset.. but i cant... its really hard and everyone may think im an attention seeker but im not! ITS HARD! AND EVERYONES TELLING ME TO MOVE ON, JUST LET GO OR HES NOT WORTH MY TEARS. and i dont want to say it out loud but I LOVE HIM ALWAYS AND FOREVER..... IM NEVER GOING TO LET GO, EVEN IF HE HATES ME IDC... IM GOING TO LOVE HIM WITH ALL MY LIFE... word of advice never say let go.. or to just forget about him ever again. since the hr he dumped me i havnt eaten ... i only ate at lunch since renee and shena threatened me to :S so i had to. i felt really sick afterwards.. and yeah i cried.. i miss him a lot and he acts like nothing ever happend and as if he doesnt care a damn shit about the times we shared... he doesnt care about me =/=/ im not good enough for him.
am i fat?
am i ugly?
am i a bitch?
am i too clingy?
am i stupid.. for falling for u?
=/
i cant stop crying, even when theres no tears left to cry.. i still cry with dried tears. i cry for hours... =/ i think half the school saw. i had to talk to maths head teacher, ms king, peer mediator and councillor :S... and all they say is to let go.. and that its going to be ok. that im pretty and theres million of guys out there... and that maybe hed give me a second chance.... =/
it kills me when i think that he lied about promising to love me forever and to never let go =/ we talked about our future.. and now i say to myself? doesnt he think its all a waste, to dump the memories and the time we shared into a bin and jst walk away as though u dont care?
Some say hed broken my heart more then once and i still love him.. but when u think of it most of the time he made me smile.. he was one of the reasons why im still living.. =/ =/ =/ and now that hes not with me , theres not enough reasons why i should still live =/ i still have hope though. i say to myself that i will get him back but then people keep saying to let go and that its over... =/
BABE U MEAN THE WORLD TO ME! how can u jst lose feelings..... =/ after all the times we had and hrs on the phone.. it just ends =/ is it my fault u lost feelings ? =/
i tried really hard ... but it looked like u wanted to lose feelings .. u wanted me to get hurt? do u like someone else or somethhing..?
im being selfish but idc i want u back. =/=/=/
iloveyou
iloveyou
iloveyou
iloveyou
iloveyou
iloveyou
iloveyou
iloveyou
iloveyou
imissyou
imissyou
imissyou
imissyou
imissyou
imissyou
imissyou
iwantyou
iwantyou
iwantyou
iwantyou
iwantyou
iwantyou
iwantyou
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh =/=/=/=/=/=/=/=/=/=/=/=/=/=/=/=/=/=/
AND ITS WEIRD HOW I STARTED CRYING AND THE RAIN STARTED POORING.
im so hurt.. i feel as though i cant smile. the only way i can.. is to be with him again. all i want is him but at the same time i dont want my friends to hate me for loving him too much.. i look at everyone and i always think there the best things in the world ive ever had. especially shena, shes always there for me and she cares about me a lot, but i cant make her happy =/=/ im always sad.
:S people may think i chose a boy over my greatest friends... its not true. i love all of yous including him... no matter what, no one will ever be replaced. i dont even have enemies at the moment. i hate no one. i love everyone in the world even the cruelest of them all.. but the people i love most are my friends and him...
i try to not think about him every second of the day. but everything reminds me about him. theres tags all over my tutor books! tag on my pencil case and ruler... tags in nearly every classroom! every love song i hear even reminds me of him. harstyles too. my room reminds me of him :S my maths hw reminds me of him.... a stupid bottle reminds me of him... things that made me happy reminds me of him..... pretty much everything reminds me of him... and when i think about it.. i try to not get upset.. but i cant... its really hard and everyone may think im an attention seeker but im not! ITS HARD! AND EVERYONES TELLING ME TO MOVE ON, JUST LET GO OR HES NOT WORTH MY TEARS. and i dont want to say it out loud but I LOVE HIM ALWAYS AND FOREVER..... IM NEVER GOING TO LET GO, EVEN IF HE HATES ME IDC... IM GOING TO LOVE HIM WITH ALL MY LIFE... word of advice never say let go.. or to just forget about him ever again. since the hr he dumped me i havnt eaten ... i only ate at lunch since renee and shena threatened me to :S so i had to. i felt really sick afterwards.. and yeah i cried.. i miss him a lot and he acts like nothing ever happend and as if he doesnt care a damn shit about the times we shared... he doesnt care about me =/=/ im not good enough for him.
am i fat?
am i ugly?
am i a bitch?
am i too clingy?
am i stupid.. for falling for u?
=/
i cant stop crying, even when theres no tears left to cry.. i still cry with dried tears. i cry for hours... =/ i think half the school saw. i had to talk to maths head teacher, ms king, peer mediator and councillor :S... and all they say is to let go.. and that its going to be ok. that im pretty and theres million of guys out there... and that maybe hed give me a second chance.... =/
it kills me when i think that he lied about promising to love me forever and to never let go =/ we talked about our future.. and now i say to myself? doesnt he think its all a waste, to dump the memories and the time we shared into a bin and jst walk away as though u dont care?
Some say hed broken my heart more then once and i still love him.. but when u think of it most of the time he made me smile.. he was one of the reasons why im still living.. =/ =/ =/ and now that hes not with me , theres not enough reasons why i should still live =/ i still have hope though. i say to myself that i will get him back but then people keep saying to let go and that its over... =/
BABE U MEAN THE WORLD TO ME! how can u jst lose feelings..... =/ after all the times we had and hrs on the phone.. it just ends =/ is it my fault u lost feelings ? =/
i tried really hard ... but it looked like u wanted to lose feelings .. u wanted me to get hurt? do u like someone else or somethhing..?
im being selfish but idc i want u back. =/=/=/
iloveyou
iloveyou
iloveyou
iloveyou
iloveyou
iloveyou
iloveyou
iloveyou
iloveyou
imissyou
imissyou
imissyou
imissyou
imissyou
imissyou
imissyou
iwantyou
iwantyou
iwantyou
iwantyou
iwantyou
iwantyou
iwantyou
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh =/=/=/=/=/=/=/=/=/=/=/=/=/=/=/=/=/=/
AND ITS WEIRD HOW I STARTED CRYING AND THE RAIN STARTED POORING.
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Saturday, January 30, 2010
(7:49 PM) -: get your own fucking facts right
(7:49 PM) ' JENN: well, i didnt call you one?
(7:49 PM) -: i cant believe what u say
(7:49 PM) ' JENN: i dont even know you
(7:50 PM) -: yeah but u judge people
(7:50 PM) ' JENN: why would i say that to you
But it wasnt to you
(7:50 PM) ' JENN: i didnt even say it
(7:50 PM) -: u full give my friends shit looks at school
(7:50 PM) ' JENN: i was just looking around
(7:50 PM) -: yeah and rolling ur eyes
(7:50 PM) ' JENN: and i was calling ppl pretty
(7:50 PM) -: is that how u trreat ur friends too
(7:50 PM) ' JENN: i wasnt
noo .
(7:51 PM) -: calling people pretty
and called others bitches and sluts?
(7:51 PM) ' JENN: me and my friedns mucking around
i didnt call anyone one
(7:51 PM) -: mucking around?
(7:51 PM) ' JENN: i really didnt call you one
(7:51 PM) -: whats that suppose to mean
(7:51 PM) ' JENN: yeah we always do
(7:52 PM) -: lol...
(7:52 PM) ' JENN: i swear i didnt call you one
your friend might of misunderstood what i said .
(7:52 PM) -: she heard it clearly
(7:52 PM) ' JENN: even if it came out of my mouth doesnt mean it was to you
(7:52 PM) -: u didnt actually say my name
but u said wat i was doing
(7:53 PM) ' JENN: wait maybe it was that time when i called this girl a slut cause she gave me a dirty
(7:53 PM) -: its ur second day at school and u acting like a bitch already
(7:53 PM) ' JENN: and i think thats when your friend heard it
(7:53 PM) -: sorry i didnt give u dirties
(7:53 PM) ' JENN: not you
(7:53 PM) -: i dont really see u around school much
(7:53 PM) ' JENN: this other chick in year 7
(7:53 PM) -: well u could of called another girl a slut
(7:54 PM) ' JENN: im sorry if your friend thought it was to you buyt it wasnt
(7:54 PM) -: maybe u do it too much that u cant remember
(7:54 PM) ' JENN: i did
it wasnt to you okaye?
(7:54 PM) ' JENN: i wouldnt call someone a slut if i dont know them
(7:55 PM) -: and u called sohpy a bitch too
whats that?
why u starting shit
fucking attention seeker
(7:55 PM) ' JENN: thats my friend
well just this girl i know
she said she was a show off to me in pe
(7:56 PM) -: shes probably mucking around like what u do
(7:57 PM) ' JENN: i know but i really didnt call you one
(7:57 PM) ' JENNIEEHBABY . has changed his/her personal message to "hmms ."
(7:57 PM) -: how do i know that
(7:58 PM) ' JENN: well thats why you dont jump in conclusion and check if i did say it to you
(7:58 PM) -: in the end u did call someone a slut , so your not that inoccent after all
(7:58 PM) ' JENN: but it wasnt to you
(7:59 PM) -: but it was to someone
why the fuck are you starting shit anyways
(7:59 PM) ' JENN: but its not like you never said it to anyone
im trying to not
(7:59 PM) -: wowowowonyou trying? its your second day at school and your trying?
(8:00 PM) ' JENN: LOL
(8:00 PM) ' JENN: well, like i didnt call you one .
(8:01 PM) -: it doesnt matter if it was me or not
(8:02 PM) -: you still ended up calling someone a slut
(8:02 PM) ' JENN: i know
(8:02 PM) -: what happens if that person was my friend
or some shit
(8:02 PM) ' JENN: but im pretty its not
well i gtg to cousins
(8:02 PM) -: you really suck at english
(8:02 PM) -: ]everything you say doesnt make sense
..
(8:03 PM) ' JENN: anyways bye
(8:03 PM) -: byhe
--'
c u at schoool
i be watching u
(8:03 PM) ' JENN: well, just to say it again i didnt call you one
im sorry if its to someone that you knew
but im pretty sure it wasnt
(8:04 PM) -: right..
w.e bye
(8:04 PM) ' JENN: welll i didnt okaye?
i bet your gonna tell me off right?
(8:05 PM) ' JENN: well. i dont want to get into shit anymore .
(8:05 PM) ' JENNIEEHBABY . is now Offline
(8:06 PM) -: lol u got urself into it
that highschool
(8:06 PM) -: its only the beginning
Session Start: Saturday, 30 January 2010
- amyduonglovestonynguyen (hamster-x3xoxo@hotmail.com)
- JENNIEEHBABY (azn_dreamer_bab3y@hotmail.com)
(8:34 PM) -: um, I'm back, is there anything else you need to say to me ?
(8:35 PM) -: no?
keep ur mouth shut next time
(8:36 PM) -: unless u want to be hates by the whole school
year 8s and 10s think ur a slut already
in 1 day
Session Start: Saturday, 30 January 2010
- amyduonglovestonynguyen (hamster-x3xoxo@hotmail.com)
- JENNIEEHBABY (azn_dreamer_bab3y@hotmail.com)
(8:44 PM) -: Well, I honestly didn't call you a slut. Maybe sophy misunderstood and thought I was talking about you, coz like, I didn't know you until you added me on fb, and I don't judge people by their looks because you never know their personality
They could be really nice
(8:45 PM) -: um idk whats goigng on but amy isnt here
atm
im her cousin
(8:46 PM) -: Oh ok, can you please show amy my msgs when she's back? Thank you
(8:46 PM) -: mmkayys
your in year 7 aye?
(8:47 PM) -: Yeup
(8:48 PM) -: by reading what you sed to amy
um just for advice dont say anything abt anyone
(8:48 PM) -: cos its starts alot of shit and yeahs
its gets ugly
(8:49 PM) -: my sister is in your grade
(8:50 PM) -: Oh ok, but I didn't really say anything ant amy. Oh really, what's her name ?
(8:51 PM) -: ohs idk thens
(8:51 PM) -: but im not talking abt amy
im juust saying everyone all together
umm
julie mai
(8:52 PM) - amyduonglovestonynguyen has changed his/her personal message to "yeah theyre way better then me arent they?|| thought u were one of a close guy friend.. and u say this shit... not hereee"
(8:55 PM) - JENNIEEHBABY is now Offline
(8:55 PM) - JENNIEEHBABY is now Online
(8:55 PM) - JENNIEEHBABY has changed his/her name to "azn_dreamer_bab3y@hotmail.com"
(8:55 PM) azn_dreamer_bab3y@hotmail.com has changed his/her name to "jenny"
(8:56 PM) jenny has changed his/her name to "- JENNIEEHBABY"
(8:56 PM) -: Sorry, I dced
(8:56 PM) -: its okays
(8:58 PM) -: So is your sister in my school?
(8:59 PM) -: yeahs
i go your school too
(9:00 PM) -: Oh, what year ?
(9:00 PM) -: um 10
(9:01 PM) -: Oh ok, same as my cousin :L
(9:01 PM) -: ohs
whos that?
(9:01 PM) -: What's your sisters name ?
(9:01 PM) -: julie mai
(9:01 PM) -: Racheal
(9:01 PM) -: does she go cabra?
(9:02 PM) -: Nope, I'm friends with julie mai, I hang with her :L
(9:02 PM) -: julie mai b LOL
(9:02 PM) -: Me and her always give each dirties for fun :L
Hmmmmm, not sure :L
(9:03 PM) -: If that's her
(9:03 PM) -: cos my sister told me abt another julie mai
girl in her grade
(9:03 PM) -:
(9:04 PM) -: Oh, okay, I don't know her, I think
(9:07 PM) -: mmkayys
(9:07 PM) -: Hey, what's your name, you seem nice
(9:08 PM) - amyduonglovestonynguyen is now Offline
(9:11 PM) azn_dreamer_bab3y@hotmail.com has changed his/her name to "- JENNIEEHBABY"
(9:11 PM) - amyduonglovestonynguyen has signed-in (Busy)
(9:11 PM) -: sorry i dced
umm im susan
(9:11 PM) -: It's okay. Oh okay, nice to meet you
(9:11 PM) -:
sames
(9:13 PM) -: So where's amy ?
(9:14 PM) -: downstairs
(9:14 PM) -: she said she was chasing her friend around at lunch or something
(9:15 PM) -: then u called her a slut for doing that
(9:17 PM) -: Nah, it was this girl in my grade, and she chucked me a dirty when I didn't even do anything to her, let alone , know her. But I think sophy got the wrong idea and thought it was to amy, when it clearly wasn't
(9:18 PM) -: and whos that girl
(9:18 PM) -: I don't know her
(9:20 PM) -: what she look like?
(9:22 PM) -: She has a split, I think. And that's all I remmeber, coz I didn't take that much notice of her
(9:22 PM) -: lol ok...
(9:24 PM) -: so umm, do you know peter le?
(9:24 PM) -: from
(9:25 PM) - amyduonglovestonynguyen has changed his/her personal message to "thought u were one of a close guy friend.. and u say this shit... not hereee"
(9:25 PM) -: Your grade .
Your school
(9:26 PM) -: yeah
why?
i know everyone in my grade..
(9:27 PM) -: Ohh just asking, umms brb, gonna go on laptop
(9:27 PM) -: lol k
(7:49 PM) ' JENN: well, i didnt call you one?
(7:49 PM) -: i cant believe what u say
(7:49 PM) ' JENN: i dont even know you
(7:50 PM) -: yeah but u judge people
(7:50 PM) ' JENN: why would i say that to you
But it wasnt to you
(7:50 PM) ' JENN: i didnt even say it
(7:50 PM) -: u full give my friends shit looks at school
(7:50 PM) ' JENN: i was just looking around
(7:50 PM) -: yeah and rolling ur eyes
(7:50 PM) ' JENN: and i was calling ppl pretty
(7:50 PM) -: is that how u trreat ur friends too
(7:50 PM) ' JENN: i wasnt
noo .
(7:51 PM) -: calling people pretty
and called others bitches and sluts?
(7:51 PM) ' JENN: me and my friedns mucking around
i didnt call anyone one
(7:51 PM) -: mucking around?
(7:51 PM) ' JENN: i really didnt call you one
(7:51 PM) -: whats that suppose to mean
(7:51 PM) ' JENN: yeah we always do
(7:52 PM) -: lol...
(7:52 PM) ' JENN: i swear i didnt call you one
your friend might of misunderstood what i said .
(7:52 PM) -: she heard it clearly
(7:52 PM) ' JENN: even if it came out of my mouth doesnt mean it was to you
(7:52 PM) -: u didnt actually say my name
but u said wat i was doing
(7:53 PM) ' JENN: wait maybe it was that time when i called this girl a slut cause she gave me a dirty
(7:53 PM) -: its ur second day at school and u acting like a bitch already
(7:53 PM) ' JENN: and i think thats when your friend heard it
(7:53 PM) -: sorry i didnt give u dirties
(7:53 PM) ' JENN: not you
(7:53 PM) -: i dont really see u around school much
(7:53 PM) ' JENN: this other chick in year 7
(7:53 PM) -: well u could of called another girl a slut
(7:54 PM) ' JENN: im sorry if your friend thought it was to you buyt it wasnt
(7:54 PM) -: maybe u do it too much that u cant remember
(7:54 PM) ' JENN: i did
it wasnt to you okaye?
(7:54 PM) ' JENN: i wouldnt call someone a slut if i dont know them
(7:55 PM) -: and u called sohpy a bitch too
whats that?
why u starting shit
fucking attention seeker
(7:55 PM) ' JENN: thats my friend
well just this girl i know
she said she was a show off to me in pe
(7:56 PM) -: shes probably mucking around like what u do
(7:57 PM) ' JENN: i know but i really didnt call you one
(7:57 PM) ' JENNIEEHBABY . has changed his/her personal message to "hmms ."
(7:57 PM) -: how do i know that
(7:58 PM) ' JENN: well thats why you dont jump in conclusion and check if i did say it to you
(7:58 PM) -: in the end u did call someone a slut , so your not that inoccent after all
(7:58 PM) ' JENN: but it wasnt to you
(7:59 PM) -: but it was to someone
why the fuck are you starting shit anyways
(7:59 PM) ' JENN: but its not like you never said it to anyone
im trying to not
(7:59 PM) -: wowowowonyou trying? its your second day at school and your trying?
(8:00 PM) ' JENN: LOL
(8:00 PM) ' JENN: well, like i didnt call you one .
(8:01 PM) -: it doesnt matter if it was me or not
(8:02 PM) -: you still ended up calling someone a slut
(8:02 PM) ' JENN: i know
(8:02 PM) -: what happens if that person was my friend
or some shit
(8:02 PM) ' JENN: but im pretty its not
well i gtg to cousins
(8:02 PM) -: you really suck at english
(8:02 PM) -: ]everything you say doesnt make sense
..
(8:03 PM) ' JENN: anyways bye
(8:03 PM) -: byhe
--'
c u at schoool
i be watching u
(8:03 PM) ' JENN: well, just to say it again i didnt call you one
im sorry if its to someone that you knew
but im pretty sure it wasnt
(8:04 PM) -: right..
w.e bye
(8:04 PM) ' JENN: welll i didnt okaye?
i bet your gonna tell me off right?
(8:05 PM) ' JENN: well. i dont want to get into shit anymore .
(8:05 PM) ' JENNIEEHBABY . is now Offline
(8:06 PM) -: lol u got urself into it
that highschool
(8:06 PM) -: its only the beginning
Session Start: Saturday, 30 January 2010
- amyduonglovestonynguyen (hamster-x3xoxo@hotmail.com)
- JENNIEEHBABY (azn_dreamer_bab3y@hotmail.com)
(8:34 PM) -: um, I'm back, is there anything else you need to say to me ?
(8:35 PM) -: no?
keep ur mouth shut next time
(8:36 PM) -: unless u want to be hates by the whole school
year 8s and 10s think ur a slut already
in 1 day
Session Start: Saturday, 30 January 2010
- amyduonglovestonynguyen (hamster-x3xoxo@hotmail.com)
- JENNIEEHBABY (azn_dreamer_bab3y@hotmail.com)
(8:44 PM) -: Well, I honestly didn't call you a slut. Maybe sophy misunderstood and thought I was talking about you, coz like, I didn't know you until you added me on fb, and I don't judge people by their looks because you never know their personality
They could be really nice
(8:45 PM) -: um idk whats goigng on but amy isnt here
atm
im her cousin
(8:46 PM) -: Oh ok, can you please show amy my msgs when she's back? Thank you
(8:46 PM) -: mmkayys
your in year 7 aye?
(8:47 PM) -: Yeup
(8:48 PM) -: by reading what you sed to amy
um just for advice dont say anything abt anyone
(8:48 PM) -: cos its starts alot of shit and yeahs
its gets ugly
(8:49 PM) -: my sister is in your grade
(8:50 PM) -: Oh ok, but I didn't really say anything ant amy. Oh really, what's her name ?
(8:51 PM) -: ohs idk thens
(8:51 PM) -: but im not talking abt amy
im juust saying everyone all together
umm
julie mai
(8:52 PM) - amyduonglovestonynguyen has changed his/her personal message to "yeah theyre way better then me arent they?|| thought u were one of a close guy friend.. and u say this shit... not hereee"
(8:55 PM) - JENNIEEHBABY is now Offline
(8:55 PM) - JENNIEEHBABY is now Online
(8:55 PM) - JENNIEEHBABY has changed his/her name to "azn_dreamer_bab3y@hotmail.com"
(8:55 PM) azn_dreamer_bab3y@hotmail.com has changed his/her name to "jenny"
(8:56 PM) jenny has changed his/her name to "- JENNIEEHBABY"
(8:56 PM) -: Sorry, I dced
(8:56 PM) -: its okays
(8:58 PM) -: So is your sister in my school?
(8:59 PM) -: yeahs
i go your school too
(9:00 PM) -: Oh, what year ?
(9:00 PM) -: um 10
(9:01 PM) -: Oh ok, same as my cousin :L
(9:01 PM) -: ohs
whos that?
(9:01 PM) -: What's your sisters name ?
(9:01 PM) -: julie mai
(9:01 PM) -: Racheal
(9:01 PM) -: does she go cabra?
(9:02 PM) -: Nope, I'm friends with julie mai, I hang with her :L
(9:02 PM) -: julie mai b LOL
(9:02 PM) -: Me and her always give each dirties for fun :L
Hmmmmm, not sure :L
(9:03 PM) -: If that's her
(9:03 PM) -: cos my sister told me abt another julie mai
girl in her grade
(9:03 PM) -:
(9:04 PM) -: Oh, okay, I don't know her, I think
(9:07 PM) -: mmkayys
(9:07 PM) -: Hey, what's your name, you seem nice
(9:08 PM) - amyduonglovestonynguyen is now Offline
(9:11 PM) azn_dreamer_bab3y@hotmail.com has changed his/her name to "- JENNIEEHBABY"
(9:11 PM) - amyduonglovestonynguyen has signed-in (Busy)
(9:11 PM) -: sorry i dced
umm im susan
(9:11 PM) -: It's okay. Oh okay, nice to meet you
(9:11 PM) -:
sames
(9:13 PM) -: So where's amy ?
(9:14 PM) -: downstairs
(9:14 PM) -: she said she was chasing her friend around at lunch or something
(9:15 PM) -: then u called her a slut for doing that
(9:17 PM) -: Nah, it was this girl in my grade, and she chucked me a dirty when I didn't even do anything to her, let alone , know her. But I think sophy got the wrong idea and thought it was to amy, when it clearly wasn't
(9:18 PM) -: and whos that girl
(9:18 PM) -: I don't know her
(9:20 PM) -: what she look like?
(9:22 PM) -: She has a split, I think. And that's all I remmeber, coz I didn't take that much notice of her
(9:22 PM) -: lol ok...
(9:24 PM) -: so umm, do you know peter le?
(9:24 PM) -: from
(9:25 PM) - amyduonglovestonynguyen has changed his/her personal message to "thought u were one of a close guy friend.. and u say this shit... not hereee"
(9:25 PM) -: Your grade .
Your school
(9:26 PM) -: yeah
why?
i know everyone in my grade..
(9:27 PM) -: Ohh just asking, umms brb, gonna go on laptop
(9:27 PM) -: lol k
Friday, January 29, 2010
fuck u whore
caling me a slut hah? well try look at urself in the mirror and call me a slut face to face. so if im a slut? what does that make you. say ur better then me and i pull your eyes out so that people dont get offended by u for chucking erm little shit dirties... --" its 1st day back and i already picked out a bitch. i may dress like a slut but doesnt mean i am one. just because you think your all that doesnt mean everyone else around you does. all they thnk abuot you is whats that bitches problem? get a fucking life. oh and u watch out on monday bitch. you'll be sorry.
so if you wonder and think why we're actually telling you off?
maybe its because your a girl that dresses like a bitch who has a attitude that highly offends others around you and ur eyes are probably retarted? or is it just me. what i mean is u have a staring/rolling eye problem. btw i reccomend you bitch somewhere no one can hear you? dont you dare call someone a bitch/slut or w.e just because they chased someone around ? or what liked a guy?
so if you wonder and think why we're actually telling you off?
maybe its because your a girl that dresses like a bitch who has a attitude that highly offends others around you and ur eyes are probably retarted? or is it just me. what i mean is u have a staring/rolling eye problem. btw i reccomend you bitch somewhere no one can hear you? dont you dare call someone a bitch/slut or w.e just because they chased someone around ? or what liked a guy?
Thursday, January 28, 2010
1st day of school
well well well, havnt blogged in a while aye?
hahas i regret being overexcited for school. ffs --"
oft the day ended like what i thought it would, but didnt get what i exspected...
like i come to school and he cant even make an effort to walk up to me and say hi? why am i doing all the work now...
well mum came with me to get reports and it turned out great...
Classes ive got:
Math AD3 (some teacher who cant even talk)
SCIENCE 4 ( an alright asian man)
ENGLISH 1 (indian chick whose writing is like gibrish)
PDH 6 ( ewww RAPINET! he picked on me no last year :( )
Hsie 8 (hvnt met)
Tecnology 7 ( shes alright)
Visual Arts 6 (havnt met)
sports 6 (rapinet again --")
French 2 (eww mr nguyen)
shit aye?
kept staring at him :S:S:S and yeah i got a bit 'down' well at the fact that we werent talking and like i think everytime he sees me he changes his path? or tries to avoid me... wtf?
and lunch rosa goes off and asks something and something about him thinking im moody is the reason why hes not talking? is that a reason..? if someones moody, u go off and talk to them.. not make it worse.. and its a bfs job to cheer a chick up too.
oft :S
sooo pissed off when it was last two periods :S:S
and bla bla bla got home and had to go cabra to withdrawal money outta sis bank while she stays in the car --"
well thats my friday.. oft tutor tmro :S and i hope this weekend will be better. like get back on track with him...? :S:S:S
hahas i regret being overexcited for school. ffs --"
oft the day ended like what i thought it would, but didnt get what i exspected...
like i come to school and he cant even make an effort to walk up to me and say hi? why am i doing all the work now...
well mum came with me to get reports and it turned out great...
Classes ive got:
Math AD3 (some teacher who cant even talk)
SCIENCE 4 ( an alright asian man)
ENGLISH 1 (indian chick whose writing is like gibrish)
PDH 6 ( ewww RAPINET! he picked on me no last year :( )
Hsie 8 (hvnt met)
Tecnology 7 ( shes alright)
Visual Arts 6 (havnt met)
sports 6 (rapinet again --")
French 2 (eww mr nguyen)
shit aye?
kept staring at him :S:S:S and yeah i got a bit 'down' well at the fact that we werent talking and like i think everytime he sees me he changes his path? or tries to avoid me... wtf?
and lunch rosa goes off and asks something and something about him thinking im moody is the reason why hes not talking? is that a reason..? if someones moody, u go off and talk to them.. not make it worse.. and its a bfs job to cheer a chick up too.
oft :S
sooo pissed off when it was last two periods :S:S
and bla bla bla got home and had to go cabra to withdrawal money outta sis bank while she stays in the car --"
well thats my friday.. oft tutor tmro :S and i hope this weekend will be better. like get back on track with him...? :S:S:S
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Friday, January 22, 2010
not a bad day, cause nothing happend.
TUTOR at 9am today D: and learnt area in circles... talk about B*O*R*I*N*G.
no one picked me up --" and dad finally cluelessly called at 11:40 and said ' who's picking u up' --" oh wells. then he picked me up and took me to canley heights to eat pho.. mmm mmm mmm
grabbed ice cream at IGA for my pancakes that i was going to make, maybe tmro? :D then got home and did nothing......................................................................................................................................................................
turned on some drama.. and stared at my laptop.. seriously theres no point of msn if no ones going to talk to u. not even , nah dont want to mention his name. he didnt appear on anyways.. --"" like wtf u have 385 friends on your contact list and hardly no one talks to you.. might as well just fucking delete my msn or trash out my laptop. and atm im still not paying attention to the tv. instead, im just thinking why hes not picking up my calls or appearing on? and like i go on facebook and he posted something 5 minutes ago.. wtf? jeeze --" so what? he blocked me now... i want things to go back to where they were before :(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:( and hey guess what our 4 months is tomorrow :( i wonder if he'll unblock/appear on/accept my calls for that................
LIFE IS SO SCREWED.
if only i didnt get shena grounded, shed talk to me i guess? :S and peters phone keeps hanging up on me...
quote; Life doesn't hurt until you have time to yourself to think about how things have changed, who you've lost along the way, and how much of it is your fault.
its like our relationship is on the edge of a cliff and he doesnt even care if it falls... - amy duong-
Thursday, January 21, 2010
WHY CANT I JUST FUCKING HAVE A BETTER LIFE!
FUCKKKKK.
first things first. woke up at 7am
showered/brush theeth/got ready.
then i asked dad to drop me off at julies house.
got to her house and begged julie to come city with me for kevins birthday. ==" she ended up not going and thats how this whole shit started. if she went with me i wouldnt of got in trouble =="
anyways, we were suppose to meet at everyone at 12 pm sharp! BUT THE BOYS 'TONY,PETER AND KEVIN' were late. and me, rosa, shena and kenny had to waite for ages. finally they came, bought train tickets and waited for the train.... and yes tony was there... but i wanted to talk to him but it was soooo hard. we were forced to hug... minutes later i looked up at cabra bridge and saw my aunty! at the fact that im not suppose to be out and i was with boys! GG. but i didnt know she saw me and tony hugging so i was only a little paranoid. :S so got to city :S and boys dogged us, so i couldnt talk to tony :(
We were suppose to meet the guys at karaoke but they took a while so we started without them. minutes later they called and saiid they werent comming :( which got me not in the mood to sing no more.... they went box hill or w.e... haha lets google the place, i dont eeven know where or what the fucks box hill is. so yeah.. didnt think about my aunty or tony and just sang... then , i was about to check the time on my phone and it seemed that my phone was ringing tooo. SHIT! i thought.... and i ran to the room front of ours and picked up... it was my DAD D: D: D:
GG for me. he was like hahah where are u. u lieing and shit :O:O :S oh ma i was like shit.... fuck... erm im at swimming and hes like huh where whos house? im like SWIMMING. and he said where D: i go check there.... so i said im swimming at friends house.. im such a bad liar >.<
heard my mums lectures from back too :S i nearly shitted it :S :S :S then my sister/bitch/skank msg me and said i had to be home at 5 sharp no excuses what so ever ... w/e
so... our time was up and we went to grap fish balls and ra ra ra boring stuff hehe and it was 4:47 when we got to the train station platform 19 :S:S
had to waite another 8 min :S:S
ra ra ra
finally on the train i started thinking what would happen when i get home :S and thought of tony... and kept thinking about my shit life and how hard im coping wiith it :S got so emotional and tears ran down.. rosa and shena kindly asked... wats wrong.. :S:S took a while for me to say ' im stressed out' :S:S GG rarara and at 5pm sharp D: sis called.. gosh shes a loser.. called the exact time.. blablabla lecture lecture lecture :L:L then we all talked about what i should say back :L:L:L and make her shutup so funny ahhahahahahhahas..
rarara
dad picked me up and in the car he said, 'ur aunty called ur mum and said she saw u kissing and hugging this guy' and that ' u were with 3 boys'
...... i lied and said that we just suddenly saw them and went on same train and thats it.. and then we got in... i poured a glass of water for me and went upstairs to get changed. MUM CAME RIGHT UP D:D:
'where the fuck u go u piece of shit' u keep fucking doing this how am i going to know if it doesnt happen anymore oh and of course this was all said it viet :L and she started she doesnt believe me and shit :S:S and fuck cant explain :S and she said that us 3 girl each had a boyfriend.. and we went together.. and shenas mum doesnt know shena has a boyfriend so im going to her house to tell her mum and ra ra ra ra ra fuckkkkkk. i called shena :S and she got double grounded :S:S :S fuck we all had a bad day :S :( :'( .... then i called peter and told what happend and talked to tony and then heard my mum breathing on the other phone so i said bye and ily ^.^ and he said ily2 but didnt really say it passionately. :S and im about to go fishing at chippy norton :S:S and my fucking aunty better be there! im going fucking look at her if though she was a fish herself --" mother ass hole say shit when she doesnt even noe the whole fucking true story!!!!!
gosh ! :S:S mum thinks i have a bf again...
first things first. woke up at 7am
showered/brush theeth/got ready.
then i asked dad to drop me off at julies house.
got to her house and begged julie to come city with me for kevins birthday. ==" she ended up not going and thats how this whole shit started. if she went with me i wouldnt of got in trouble =="
anyways, we were suppose to meet at everyone at 12 pm sharp! BUT THE BOYS 'TONY,PETER AND KEVIN' were late. and me, rosa, shena and kenny had to waite for ages. finally they came, bought train tickets and waited for the train.... and yes tony was there... but i wanted to talk to him but it was soooo hard. we were forced to hug... minutes later i looked up at cabra bridge and saw my aunty! at the fact that im not suppose to be out and i was with boys! GG. but i didnt know she saw me and tony hugging so i was only a little paranoid. :S so got to city :S and boys dogged us, so i couldnt talk to tony :(
We were suppose to meet the guys at karaoke but they took a while so we started without them. minutes later they called and saiid they werent comming :( which got me not in the mood to sing no more.... they went box hill or w.e... haha lets google the place, i dont eeven know where or what the fucks box hill is. so yeah.. didnt think about my aunty or tony and just sang... then , i was about to check the time on my phone and it seemed that my phone was ringing tooo. SHIT! i thought.... and i ran to the room front of ours and picked up... it was my DAD D: D: D:
GG for me. he was like hahah where are u. u lieing and shit :O:O :S oh ma i was like shit.... fuck... erm im at swimming and hes like huh where whos house? im like SWIMMING. and he said where D: i go check there.... so i said im swimming at friends house.. im such a bad liar >.<
heard my mums lectures from back too :S i nearly shitted it :S :S :S then my sister/bitch/skank msg me and said i had to be home at 5 sharp no excuses what so ever ... w/e
so... our time was up and we went to grap fish balls and ra ra ra boring stuff hehe and it was 4:47 when we got to the train station platform 19 :S:S
had to waite another 8 min :S:S
ra ra ra
finally on the train i started thinking what would happen when i get home :S and thought of tony... and kept thinking about my shit life and how hard im coping wiith it :S got so emotional and tears ran down.. rosa and shena kindly asked... wats wrong.. :S:S took a while for me to say ' im stressed out' :S:S GG rarara and at 5pm sharp D: sis called.. gosh shes a loser.. called the exact time.. blablabla lecture lecture lecture :L:L then we all talked about what i should say back :L:L:L and make her shutup so funny ahhahahahahhahas..
rarara
dad picked me up and in the car he said, 'ur aunty called ur mum and said she saw u kissing and hugging this guy' and that ' u were with 3 boys'
...... i lied and said that we just suddenly saw them and went on same train and thats it.. and then we got in... i poured a glass of water for me and went upstairs to get changed. MUM CAME RIGHT UP D:D:
'where the fuck u go u piece of shit' u keep fucking doing this how am i going to know if it doesnt happen anymore oh and of course this was all said it viet :L and she started she doesnt believe me and shit :S:S and fuck cant explain :S and she said that us 3 girl each had a boyfriend.. and we went together.. and shenas mum doesnt know shena has a boyfriend so im going to her house to tell her mum and ra ra ra ra ra fuckkkkkk. i called shena :S and she got double grounded :S:S :S fuck we all had a bad day :S :( :'( .... then i called peter and told what happend and talked to tony and then heard my mum breathing on the other phone so i said bye and ily ^.^ and he said ily2 but didnt really say it passionately. :S and im about to go fishing at chippy norton :S:S and my fucking aunty better be there! im going fucking look at her if though she was a fish herself --" mother ass hole say shit when she doesnt even noe the whole fucking true story!!!!!
gosh ! :S:S mum thinks i have a bf again...
what a day
YAY *jumps for joy* AMYS BACK IN SYD NIGGAS! :)
So lets start off with the first thing i did when i woke up on my cousins floor today?
right, i think i woke up at 11 hehe and peed in the toilet of course and bla bla brush teeth ra ra ra. dragged myself to the kitchen and ate mmm noodles :L. so happy i was going home today :D
still missing tony...
i played dynasty warriors 5 for couple of hours... skipped lunch and played sims2, step mania, itunes and much more on cousins laptop. LOL there was like 5 laptops in once house! 1 of susans, 1 of mine, 2 of cousin, and the other one was my oh so asian male cousin :L ahhaha we snuck carona :D
then uncle said he drop us off at the greyhound station/bus stop or w.e at 3 but he came at 2 --" not even ready yet and we rushed. awww i forgot my phone chain :( 8 bucks for one! anyways we got to the station and figured out that our bus leaves at 4 --" so we sat in the a/c room and ate like a bunch of fat hogs :L watching tennis.
2hrs later...
Yay finally we got on the boiling bus.. fucking a/c in there didnt work >.<
yeah yeah then i watched bring it on, on my laptop...;.*drools HAWT chicks. and fuck i ranout of batteries so just slept with my ipod on :L and in noe time the bus driver announced 10 minutes to livo . YUPEEE.
omg, and i watched tooth fairy on the 2nd day, its SOOO hilarious , u should watch it!
D: its so hot tomorrow
So lets start off with the first thing i did when i woke up on my cousins floor today?
right, i think i woke up at 11 hehe and peed in the toilet of course and bla bla brush teeth ra ra ra. dragged myself to the kitchen and ate mmm noodles :L. so happy i was going home today :D
still missing tony...
i played dynasty warriors 5 for couple of hours... skipped lunch and played sims2, step mania, itunes and much more on cousins laptop. LOL there was like 5 laptops in once house! 1 of susans, 1 of mine, 2 of cousin, and the other one was my oh so asian male cousin :L ahhaha we snuck carona :D
then uncle said he drop us off at the greyhound station/bus stop or w.e at 3 but he came at 2 --" not even ready yet and we rushed. awww i forgot my phone chain :( 8 bucks for one! anyways we got to the station and figured out that our bus leaves at 4 --" so we sat in the a/c room and ate like a bunch of fat hogs :L watching tennis.
2hrs later...
Yay finally we got on the boiling bus.. fucking a/c in there didnt work >.<
yeah yeah then i watched bring it on, on my laptop...;.*drools HAWT chicks. and fuck i ranout of batteries so just slept with my ipod on :L and in noe time the bus driver announced 10 minutes to livo . YUPEEE.
omg, and i watched tooth fairy on the 2nd day, its SOOO hilarious , u should watch it!
D: its so hot tomorrow
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Day 1
fark i cant take it but i got to. gee i woke up at 9:45 :S fark i miss him :(
anyways felt so sick :( and brush teeth, rarara ate breakfast mmm fishballs for breakfat hahas :) went online and so bored not talking to him.. anyways then at 11 cousin called and shockingly said ' your going to canberra, get ready uncles picking u up' im like wtf? how sudden and haha no shit im comming. though i have tutor on tuesday but fuck that. :) (A) *keke* so now im waiting for mum to come home to scab cash off her. hmm and should i buy credit?
im bringing my laptop, and hopefully im allowed on net at cuz house.
i keep thinking that what if he loses feelings for me if i dont talk to him? :S =/ 'lifes hard, but we only life once, so enjoy it it while u can'
i wish just wish he can call me... that wouldnt make me clingy right? :S i pray to god ! tony dont think bad and walk out of my heart :(
anyways, im getting ready while waiting for mum =="
half way there...
yes im done! hehes :)
gosh i miss tony :( the sound of his voice just skips the beat of my heart.
oh i must say, do u love me?
or am i jst too anoyying....
i might call him tuesday night :S cant take it >.<
or not, idk :S :S :S what do i do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :(:(:'(
anyways felt so sick :( and brush teeth, rarara ate breakfast mmm fishballs for breakfat hahas :) went online and so bored not talking to him.. anyways then at 11 cousin called and shockingly said ' your going to canberra, get ready uncles picking u up' im like wtf? how sudden and haha no shit im comming. though i have tutor on tuesday but fuck that. :) (A) *keke* so now im waiting for mum to come home to scab cash off her. hmm and should i buy credit?
im bringing my laptop, and hopefully im allowed on net at cuz house.
i keep thinking that what if he loses feelings for me if i dont talk to him? :S =/ 'lifes hard, but we only life once, so enjoy it it while u can'
i wish just wish he can call me... that wouldnt make me clingy right? :S i pray to god ! tony dont think bad and walk out of my heart :(
anyways, im getting ready while waiting for mum =="
half way there...
yes im done! hehes :)
gosh i miss tony :( the sound of his voice just skips the beat of my heart.
oh i must say, do u love me?
or am i jst too anoyying....
i might call him tuesday night :S cant take it >.<
or not, idk :S :S :S what do i do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :(:(:'(
Saturday, January 16, 2010
First Blogging experience
12am: Like everyday, im msning till wayy late. Normally chatting to tony. rarara then i got kinda tired and he continued to hardcore lag his replies,
so i decided to go off msn.
look here the convo:
12:39 AM) -: im going off nows then
(12:39 AM) -ItztOnyyz&Amyy: hokohokthens
(12:39 AM) -:no ones talking to me
(12:40 AM) -ItztOnyyz&Amyy: lol
(12:40 AM) -:no point *sigh*bye
(12:40 AM) -ItztOnyyz&Amyy:sorrybye
(12:40 AM) -:do u want me to call u or not?ur choice
(12:40 AM) -:since ur waking up early
(12:40 AM) -ItztOnyyz&Amyy:idk
(12:41 AM) -:decide now
(12:41 AM) -ItztOnyyz&Amyy:IDK
(12:41 AM) -:ok..
(12:41 AM) -:cause if i do call u i might be disturbing something and if i dont, ill miss u more
(12:42 AM) -:*sighs* text me then
(12:42 AM) -ItztOnyyz&Amyy:loslhhow
(12:43 AM) -:yakedi thingy
(12:43 AM) -ItztOnyyz&Amyy:only 3 texts
(12:43 AM) -:u only need one; call me or dont call me
(12:44 AM) -ItztOnyyz&Amyy:ohtext tahst\
(12:44 AM) -:huh
(12:44 AM) -ItztOnyyz&Amyy:dwdw
(12:44 AM) -: oks.can u follow those steps?
(12:45 AM) -ItztOnyyz&Amyy: hahasyeahs
(12:45 AM) -: u take forever to reply now days, bye.iloveyou...
(12:45 AM) -ItztOnyyz&Amyy: iloveyoutoo
Thinking that he'd text me , i waited. Slowly i fedded up and just slept.
Then i woke up at 10 am and ate food that my sister cooked for me. did some lazy chores and after, i sat back, infront of my laptop and picked the phone to call guess who? 'TONY'. he didnt pick up so i just facebooked and listened to itunes. after hrs, before going to livo with sis and her bf. i wondered and asked tony ' Am i clingy' he kinda lagged yet again, so i just went livo. had so much fun at livo shopping for bras. Finally drove back home. ehhe and i turned on my laptop :) I was soooo happy that i was home but untill an offline message appeared on my screen.
(4:07 PM) gtr_tony@hotmail:
to be honest soemtimes u are clingy
(for those who dont know what clingy means, it means a girlfriend/boyfriend whose obsessed with there partner? and the partner gets anoyyed at the fact that they keep calling/ saying i love u/ always wanting to be with them..) AND THATS ME :)
And oh did that hurt...
Even though its my fault? i was heartbroken and sad.. i didnt know what to say back so i asked my two lovely friends 'amy and lily' :) one of the most kind friends ever!
And even though its going to hurt me i sent him an offline message:
4:31 PM) -: oh mkaye then if im anoyying then
(4:31 PM) -: ill give u space..ill stop calling u and wont go on msn,bye.
(4:31 PM) -:love u?..
bye...
so it starts now. im not going to call/chat to him on msn for a couple days... its our 4 months next week too, what a relief. is he going to care? u tell me... can he live without me?
oh wells....
TO BE HONEST I THINK IM CLINGY TOO... BUT WHO CALLS THERE OWN GIRLFRIEND THAT? he calls me fat too... wtf..
HE LOVES ME MY FUCKING ASS!
so i decided to go off msn.
look here the convo:
12:39 AM) -: im going off nows then
(12:39 AM) -ItztOnyyz&Amyy: hokohokthens
(12:39 AM) -:no ones talking to me
(12:40 AM) -ItztOnyyz&Amyy: lol
(12:40 AM) -:no point *sigh*bye
(12:40 AM) -ItztOnyyz&Amyy:sorrybye
(12:40 AM) -:do u want me to call u or not?ur choice
(12:40 AM) -:since ur waking up early
(12:40 AM) -ItztOnyyz&Amyy:idk
(12:41 AM) -:decide now
(12:41 AM) -ItztOnyyz&Amyy:IDK
(12:41 AM) -:ok..
(12:41 AM) -:cause if i do call u i might be disturbing something and if i dont, ill miss u more
(12:42 AM) -:*sighs* text me then
(12:42 AM) -ItztOnyyz&Amyy:loslhhow
(12:43 AM) -:yakedi thingy
(12:43 AM) -ItztOnyyz&Amyy:only 3 texts
(12:43 AM) -:u only need one; call me or dont call me
(12:44 AM) -ItztOnyyz&Amyy:ohtext tahst\
(12:44 AM) -:huh
(12:44 AM) -ItztOnyyz&Amyy:dwdw
(12:44 AM) -: oks.can u follow those steps?
(12:45 AM) -ItztOnyyz&Amyy: hahasyeahs
(12:45 AM) -: u take forever to reply now days, bye.iloveyou...
(12:45 AM) -ItztOnyyz&Amyy: iloveyoutoo
Thinking that he'd text me , i waited. Slowly i fedded up and just slept.
Then i woke up at 10 am and ate food that my sister cooked for me. did some lazy chores and after, i sat back, infront of my laptop and picked the phone to call guess who? 'TONY'. he didnt pick up so i just facebooked and listened to itunes. after hrs, before going to livo with sis and her bf. i wondered and asked tony ' Am i clingy' he kinda lagged yet again, so i just went livo. had so much fun at livo shopping for bras. Finally drove back home. ehhe and i turned on my laptop :) I was soooo happy that i was home but untill an offline message appeared on my screen.
(4:07 PM) gtr_tony@hotmail:
to be honest soemtimes u are clingy
(for those who dont know what clingy means, it means a girlfriend/boyfriend whose obsessed with there partner? and the partner gets anoyyed at the fact that they keep calling/ saying i love u/ always wanting to be with them..) AND THATS ME :)
And oh did that hurt...
Even though its my fault? i was heartbroken and sad.. i didnt know what to say back so i asked my two lovely friends 'amy and lily' :) one of the most kind friends ever!
And even though its going to hurt me i sent him an offline message:
4:31 PM) -: oh mkaye then if im anoyying then
(4:31 PM) -: ill give u space..ill stop calling u and wont go on msn,bye.
(4:31 PM) -:love u?..
bye...
so it starts now. im not going to call/chat to him on msn for a couple days... its our 4 months next week too, what a relief. is he going to care? u tell me... can he live without me?
oh wells....
TO BE HONEST I THINK IM CLINGY TOO... BUT WHO CALLS THERE OWN GIRLFRIEND THAT? he calls me fat too... wtf..
HE LOVES ME MY FUCKING ASS!